these “phrases” have been churning around my brain–
if/when to actually sort the accumulation of junk
if/when I actually want to start a juice cleanse.
“Ugh. Why would you ever want to do another cleanse?,” the Red Knight asks
It’s not the actual cleanse I want to do-
its the idea of ridding myself of all that is stagnant.
I just know that I want to feel a little lighter
less weighed down
like I can actually view the gleaming light at the end of my tunnel
instead of being bogged down by clutter.
So I start to sort through everything, place things into bags, make lists so that I know what needs to be done-
but the feeling of lightness is fleeting. . . .
And the one area that I know truly needs to be cleaned out
is the area that I am most reluctant to examine . .
the area that often causes the most heartache in life-
Not every relationship needs to be cleaned out
some need to be repaired, patched, reinforced.
Others though-others need to be let go-completely done away with.
Just the realization is difficult-
hard to swallow-
I’ve never been good at letting go of relationships.
I’ve held onto some that cause more harm than joy.
Spring cleaning is seizing me and I know that I must act-
set limits and boundaries-
say “no” when I truly cannot accommodate,
add positivity to my world—
actively strive to protect my heart.
Spring cleaning is about protection-
ridding ourselves of physical clutter and the emotional suitcases that we have been lugging around for far too long.
Ultimately you cannot protect what you cannot even reach-
be it the closet with your favorite dress-
the organs that continually sustain you-
Spring cleaning is exhausting, tiring, at times painful but at the end-
lighter hearts prevail
and we can pack our suitcases with positivity and optimism as bright as the newness of a Spring day.
With this perspective I eye my lists as I begin my spring cleaning reminding myself that at the end of this journey
the feeling of lightness will ultimately be achieved through protection-
because this spring I choose to protect my heart.
What are you protecting this spring?