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“Spring cleaning”, “juice cleanse”
these “phrases” have been churning around my brain–
if/when to actually sort the accumulation of junk
if/when I actually want to start a juice cleanse.
“Ugh. Why would you ever want to do another cleanse?,” the Red Knight asks
It’s not the actual cleanse I want to do-its the idea of ridding myself of all that is stagnant.
I just know that I want to feel a little lighter, less weighed down
like I can actually view the gleaming light at the end of my tunnel
instead of being bogged down by clutter.
So I start to sort through everything, place things into bags, make lists so that I know what needs to be done-but the feeling of lightness is fleeting. . . .
And the one area that I know truly needs to be cleaned out is the area that I am most reluctant to examine . .the area that often causes the most heartache in life-
Not every relationship needs to be cleaned out, some need to be repaired, patched, reinforced.
Others though-others need to be let go-completely done away with.
Just the realization is difficult-hard to swallow-causes indigestion.
I’ve never been good at letting go of relationships.
I’ve held onto some that cause more harm than joy.
Spring cleaning is seizing me and I know that I must act-set limits and boundaries- say “no” when I truly cannot accommodate, eliminate noise-
add positivity to my world—
actively strive to protect my heart.
Spring cleaning is about protection
ridding ourselves of physical clutter and the emotional suitcases that we have lugged around for far too long.
Ultimately you cannot protect what you cannot even reach-be it the closet with your favorite dress-the organs that continually sustain you
Spring cleaning is exhausting, tiring, at times painful but at the end lighter hearts prevail and we can pack our suitcases with positivity and optimism as bright as the newness of a Spring day.
With this perspective I eye my lists as I begin my spring cleaning reminding myself that at the end of this journey
the feeling of lightness will ultimately be achieved through protection because this spring I choose to protect my heart.
What are you protecting this spring?
I’m Stroked to Life aka Kendra. After suffering a cerebral venous thrombosis at 25 I have found myself trying to drink in life, knowing that life is a gift and truly but a moment. (For my entire stroke story you can click here and here) I’m a mother, a writer, an art lover, a design appreciator, and in my spare time I love to curl up with a book. I want people to know that even after the worst of experiences there is life after the ickiness and it can filled with as much beauty as you choose.